Tuesday, August 04, 2009

Surreal Times

Well unfortunately my biopsy came back positive for breast cancer and tomorrow I begin a journey with surgery. After the shock came the fear and now there is the 'lets get on with it.' I haven't been in hospital since I was 10years old and I'm trying to pack. There are books - lots of books, photos, music, earplugs, food and of course pyjamas that match. I don't think I've owned a pair of these for many years.

In the corner of the room sits a pile of essentials that I may need later. One of the items is a high impact, shock absorbant sports bra. How ironic - 3 days before surgery for breast cancer I am out buying a sports bra - apparently it will 'hold my new bits' together and help them 'settle.'

Hmmmm. Still trying to process that one.

23 comments:

Unknown said...

I don't know what to say. My heart, my thoughts, and my prayers are with you.
love,
lizx

Beth said...

I was hoping against hope that the biopsy would turn out to be clear. I'm so sorry that hasn't happened.

thinking of you and your family. Stay strong.

*hugs*

Marcie Steele said...

Best of luck with the op x

Fiona Mackenzie. Writer said...

Such massive steps have been made with breast cancer treatment. My old mum has had it twice - guess it would be hard to have it three times - once at forty and again at fifty. She's now 77 :)

Thinking of you.x

Lane Mathias said...

So sorry to hear this. Wishing you all the very, very best.

xx

KeVin K. said...

Dad first gave my brother and me the "Mom might not come home from the hospital" talk in 1960. We had the talk two or three times after. When she finally passed away in 1998 it was not from cancer.
I won't tell you not to be frightened, you'd be foolish if you weren't. But I will tell you that as scary as cancer is, it's beatable. It gets beaten all the time. There are a lot more of us survivors running around than you might think.
Your life is going to change, but it is not going to end. You're going to go through, but you are not going to go under.
Our thoughts and prayers are with you.
Hang in there, kid.

Liane Spicer said...

Sending positive thoughts and healing prayers your way, NN.

Caroline said...

Thinking about you, Cx

Karen said...

I hope the operation will sort things out for you. As others have said, this thing is beatable and I'll be keeping everything crossed x

Jenny Beattie said...

Big hugs and all the very best to you. JJxxx

Cathy said...

Thinking of you and sending healing vibes.
Hugs
Cx

Rachel Green said...

My best wishes for you.

XXX

Lucy Diamond said...

So sorry to read this. Very best of luck. xxx

CL Taylor said...

Oh no, I'm so sorry. I so wanted it to be clear. I hope the operation goes as smoothly as it can in the circumstances. I don't know if you've discovered alrighttit's blog (http://alrighttit.blogspot.com/) but it might help prepare you for what's to come and you (hopefully) won't feel so alone knowing she's been through it and come out the other side.

I'll be thinking of you x

Graeme K Talboys said...

Thoughts and prayers are with you.

Annieye said...

All the very best for the operation and here's hoping for a speedy recovery. x

Leigh Forbes said...

Sending positive thoughts, hugs, and as much virtual support as I can squeeze down this little phone line.
xx

Leigh Forbes said...

...as opposed to practical support which, it seems, you already have organised!

KayJay said...

So sorry to hear this. Know that you've got a lot of people out there wishing you all the best for a full and speedy recovery.
x

Anonymous said...

Best wishes and good luck. I hope they get it all.

Deborah Carr (Debs) said...

Sorry to be so late to send you my very best wishes. x

Chris Stovell said...

So sorry to be late in sending you my very best wishes. Here's sending you many positive vibes.

NoviceNovelist said...

Thank you so much for all your positive thoughts here and for sharing some of your own stories with me - it really does mean a lot. I'll blog soon and give an update but I'm out the other side of surgery and doing wel which is a great feeling!
XXXX