Monday, August 24, 2009

Writing in spite off...

I really don't know how I feel about blogging about having cancer - pause here to scream LOUDLY at even writing the word - but here I am. I don't even know where to begin. I've had the surgery - don't feel like going into details and tomorrow go back to get results and find out what happens next. So today is my last day of simply being someone recovering from surgery as I'm pretty sure there is going to be more to come. I will jump and yell if they say 'great - all done, go home and come back and see us in the future.' But I don't think that will happen. I do feel optimistic and I also feel a black hole follows me around and if I'm not careful it'll gleefully swallow me up.

Major achievement for today - I unloaded the dishwasher
Biggest irritation of today - I can't get in the car and drive anywhere...at all

Oh I feel my words are very tame here compared to the whirlwind that has been my life for the past 5 weeks but maybe I'll get braver and bolder or maybe I'll just keep it all in my head and my spotty notebook. Tiny steps and LOTS of good champagne.

9 comments:

Jenny Beattie said...

I suspect my words will be tame too... but you're in my thoughts and I am crossing everything I have and hoping for the very best news for you tomorrow. Big hugs, JJx

Kate Harrison said...

I am thinking of you too and hoping that the news is the best it could possibly be.

Kate xxx

Unknown said...

You're in my thoughts and prayers. Everything crossed they give the all clear now.
lx

Beth said...

thinking of you. i hope the news is good. xx

Chris Stovell said...

Wishing you all the very best for those results. Chris.

NoviceNovelist said...

Thank you all so much for stopping by to wish me well. Trying not to stare at the clock and keep busy until this aft!!!

Leigh Forbes said...

Still thinking about you, and hoping you're getting through each day okay.
x

Anonymous said...

Best wishes. I hope you beat it.

Leigh Forbes said...

Still thinking about you. Sending love, hope and positive vibes through the ether.
x